Tomorrow is Chemo # 3 of this first recurrence. I have my routine down, I am ready. I got my Hollywood gossip magazines, crossword puzzles, snacks and blanket. I will make a sandwich in the morning. I have my comfy clothes ready to go.
I am wondering what drug I will get to replace the Carboplatin that I had a reaction to. I have been reading other women's experiences with recurrences and they too have developed a reaction to Carboplatin. I will still get all the pre-chemo stuff like anti-nausea meds, Benedryl and steroids before I get Taxol and Avastin and the new one.
I have decided that I will also pull my curtain open more tomorrow. I know they are supposed to be pulled closed due to Covid, but since I had that reaction, Covid while getting chemo isn't my worry, my airway shutting off is a worry. And since I wasn't the only one who had a bad reaction last time, I think the nurses will allow me to have my curtain halfway open.
I am thankful for the nice weather, it makes driving to and from chemo much easier, although I am not driving, I have rides to and from. I also don't have to wear a bulky winter coat.
I never thought I would be doing chemo again, at least not this soon. I always had that thought in the back of my mind, wondering if I would be facing cancer again. I didn't worry about it, but it was always in the back of my mind...like waiting for the other shoe to drop. And unfortunately, I have seen other people back doing chemo that are fighting again.
I keep going, although sometimes it is a bit slower or with some pain, but I keep going. However, it does make me think about putting together a bucket list. Things I would like to see or do before I leave this earth. Not that I am dying, hell no! But to be battling cancer twice in less than 3 years...yeah...I gotta think about those things.
I have been blessed. God has been with me through everything! I am so glad he has me in the palm of his hand.
God is good