On Mother's Day I woke up feeling nauseated. It was the first time in weeks. I took some anti nausea meds and drank a coke. We were going to the ranch to celebrate Mom. We had a great meal. Then sat outside and visited. We looked thru binoculars at the Eagles in their nest, they either have little ones or are soon to have little ones. We saw pheasants running around, the nephews went fishing and came back with walleyes. It was a good day. I didn't feel physically the best, but it was good for me mentally.
I have had days lately where I have no energy, just tired, but I push thru it. I get home and just rest. Laundry can wait, dishes can wait...I need the rest.
Friday afternoon I was feeling really good so I went for a walk/run. I went a mile and a half, no hills. It was really tough but I kept going. I stopped and smelled blossoms, watched squirrels play and enjoyed being outside. Saturday I was too tired and had no energy to do much. I did a bit of yard work, attacking elm trees with my machete. Sunday I went and looked at flowers. I told myself I am not going to plant a bunch this year, but I want to rip out a dead shrub and replace it with a rose bush. I got the rose bush. I started tearing out the shrub.
I have met other cancer patients who ask me how I do it. I just take it one day at a time. If I feel good, I get things done. If I am feeling tired, I rest, I don't do much. You learn to ride and navigate the waves of energy.
My next scan is June 11. We will see if the cancer cells have stayed away. I am not worrying about it or dreading it. It is what it is. I will live each day to the fullest and enjoy the beauty around me.
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