Chemo sucks! I hurt so bad. Chemo didn't hurt me like this the first time around. It is just awful. The neuropathy in my hands and feet is really painful. I am taking Gabapentin but it doesn't help completely.
I tried to write some notes for radio prep, I can barely hold a pen! And my writing is terrible. Opening a lid on a bottle is really hard. And I'm not talking lids on tight, just popping open the salad dressing...it is hard to do. My hands and fingers feel like sharp needles that throb.
Walking is tough. Going up and down stairs is hard. I was out in my hot tub for almost an hour, it felt good, but I can't live out there during treatment. The joint and muscle pain kicks in at night. The weight of a blanket on my legs brings tears to my eyes it hurts so much, but I am cold. I keep telling myself the chemo is working, it is shrinking the cancer, you will get thru this.
Nothing tastes good. I can taste, it's not covid, food just doesn't taste good. Especially meat, meat tastes bland no matter what I season it with. But I am making myself eat, I have to keep my strength up and get some protein and nutrients.
I can understand why some people choose to stop treatment. This is awful, but I am not stopping, I will continue, I have 2 more treatments to go. I know the side effects will continue to get worse, but I am not giving up. I will just be miserable, the chemo is working!
I love your goals for the new year! You can do this! Having 2 chemos left is like the last 10-15 minutes on the treadmill. That's when I usually either say I'm so done and hop off or say to myself, you've already gone so far, why not finish? And usually that's where I take it to...you have already gone so far-ring that bell and taste that victory, woman! Little Rabbit, come inside safely to abide. We love you!