Adding to my Cancer Vocabulary!

I have been told not to be on the internet, to stop googling and not worry about my cancer. Well, I go on the internet and I do google the various terms that are in my diagnosis. I don't freak out about them, I learn about them.

I got the results of my liver biopsy. Right liver mass biopsy-Metastatic serous adenocarcinoma, high grade...characterized by packed small clusters/papilae of malignant epithelial cells. It goes on to include more terms and codes. Simply put...cancer.

My side effects have returned too, with the first chemo treatment. Neuropathy in my hands and feet. And the pain in my muscles- Myalgia and in the joints-Arthralgias...both of which really hit in the evening. It is painful, but I am thankful that it strikes in the evening and doesn't last all day.

I wait until I go to bed, I take some meds and I am able to sleep. I wake up feeling much better, til it starts again in the evening.

More words in my vocabulary during this battle....family, friends, blessings.

I took a quick little drive to my brother Dave's home on Saturday, took mom with me. We visited, we cooked a great meal, the Pheasant was delicious, we had some laughs. I got to play with my littlest nephew, I recharged my inner batteries. It was wonderful. My family is awesome.

Friends have been checking in with me, making sure I am ok. Last night a friend dropped off a small gift and some snacks. It was a surprise and so appreciated. Other friends have been texting or calling...just to say...Hey Dolly...how are you? Do you need anything?...it goes a long way.

Blessings. Every day we get blessings. Some are obvious, others can be hidden. But each day, we are given blessings. I am never alone, God is always with me. He blesses me each day. I wake up. I am alive. I have family, friends, and so much more.

Even this battle is a blessing. I have been given the opportunity to show others that even though a disease is trying to kill me, I can go on. I can be positive even when movement hurts. I can laugh even when tears are falling.

Blessings... a good word in my vocabulary!